I’m fortunate to have a lot of men in my life who have influenced me in a myriad of ways. My dad (the dreamer), my brothers (the miser, the hustler, the entrepreneur, and the visionary), my uncles (all 23 of them), cousins, friends, teachers, mentors, etc…
This space is NOT about them.
This space is dedicated to the menfolk who have caused me more turmoil than anything on this adventure called life.
I just need to speak my brain
They have made me laugh and cry, feel ecstasy and despair, loved me hard and hurt me harder (wait this hurt thing can go two ways, sheesh). Stay on topic, Vanessa…
These are the men I have dated. The men that were designed by God to help me understand some of life’s more difficult lessons.
They’ve helped me through some tough spots (and caused a few), seen me through some difficult shit (and were the epicentre of much of it) and, at the end of the day, while I can still carry on a civil conversation with most of them, only a select few I actually can call ‘friend’.
This space is where I will ‘let loose’ on my feelings about the relationships I had with them. There won’t be an order to this, but I will do my best to keep some kind of structure in here.
Do not hold me to that. I write about men when I feel inspired or angry or sad or lonely or happy or all the above.
I realize need to let go expression from the get go to ’em
It’s that smorgasbord of emotion that pushed me in the direction of Amber Mark’s, Lose My Cool, as an overarching theme for this section. Amber Mark is the latest addition to my muse collection by the way. The best way I can describe her to anyone my age is that she is a young Sade with an Imagine Dragons appeal. Do not put this lady in a genre box. Anyhoo…
I’m going to be candid in this space. I’m not gonna use names but I live on a 21 by 7-mile rock with a population of less than 400,000 – most of whom are family members. They will know who I’m talking about just by the dates I put in these blog posts. Lol
Everyone else? Not so much.
Still, I’m going to be as open as I possibly can because hey, there are some secrets I just won’t ever tell.
I hope you enjoy the ride regardless.
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Song: Lose My Cool
Artist/Group: Amber Mark
Album: 3:33AM
Release date: 2017
*waits for new posts*
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Thank you for introducing me to such an empowering song. It encourages listeners to give themselves permission to release thoughts and feelings.
And this post reads like a disclaimer with no apologies.
I RESPECT this work.
Thank you Kaylus. I appreciate you!